I am really missing Lance, the lack of his presence is hitting hard after spending the whole day at the house (my in-laws) today. I went to the pantry for something and there were things for Lance still there, Sunday his dishes were still there (empty/clean) and Toby went for them as he always has. I rushed to pick up food when the children dropped something so he wouldn’t eat it. I stopped for a minute each time I left the house or walked in, because thats always when you go ahead and let the dog out. I miss his face in the window when I leave. I’ve known that dog a long time and in the past year or so, as his health declined, I wondered what it would be like when he was gone and how we would ever get used to life without him. I am so sad. It doesn’t help that Aa says things like "Mommy, where is lance?" and then "Is he really gone?" causing instant tears. And Lochlan brings him up. And we dive for the m & m’s before they hit the floor, because the dog can’t have chocolate.

I really haven’t knit much. Maybe a row here or there on my brothers scarf, but my thoughts are all over the place with J’s recent job loss & his working temp jobs all over the place right now, and summer coming up/trying to finish up school, and Tobers Bday coming up. I also have that big trip in August I need to be ready for, and there is a possibility of a move though I am at the point where until I hear it is for real for sure I am not counting on it (not even packing, boy will I be sorry if it does work out! HA)

On top of all that I’ve been lonely, though the worlds best friend ever was over Wednesday and that was just awesome and fun and so cool. She rocks. And she has the cutest four under four *EVER*  I miss being neighbors.